optimistic & happy

our wall is going down,down, down......

2009-12-02T15:56:00.002+08:00

we are so "lucky" that our unit is the only unit out of 100 in Jasmine towers with wall breaking ceremony. inner pipe is leaking water till our kitchen is flooded. what can we do besides breaking the wall???

obviously, nothing that we can do other than "celebrating"...hahahaha

imagine that we can see what our neighbour is doing in her unit since the wall is going down...DOWN...down...DOWN

Childishness, 38ness,seriousness and poser

2009-11-26T17:26:00.008+08:00

Some random pictures of mine which tell more about myself.
My friends like to link me to the terms

a. childishness~ evidence: bringing moo moo together with me when i go out (of course not every time but sometimes only...hehe:) "innocence" cheerful, and serious.

b. 38ness~ evidence: ss together with ah jin or ah q...

c. seriousness~ concentrating on works like teaching in school, teaching tuition, marking exercises, marking exam papers, doing admin works and etc.

d. poser~ always take pictures

Posting, Posting, when will you knock on my door?

2009-11-18T20:40:00.000+08:00

Getting more and more people asking me when i can get posting and start teaching recently. May be it is due to the fact that many of my friends who are from the other universities got theirs d.

i just do not know how to react to the question because i really have no idea about it. the only thing i can say is wish that everyone gets posting soon rather than wasting time doing nothing or doing something which is not relevant.

Another question i heard many times a day is "Why don't u ask headmaster to write a recommendation letter and straight away teaching here?"
For me, teaching primary kids are much more difficult than teaching secondary students because they are like blank papers which depend on how the teacher paints it.
To conclude, i still prefer teaching in secondary school...hehe (this may due to the sweet memory i had in my teaching practice school gua....)

Things are not always black or white

2009-10-15T07:36:00.002+08:00

My school is having final exam today. thus, i was so free that i can read books in staff room and even in class. the following is one of the interesting stories i read.

Things Are Not Always Black or White

(They can be in black and white at the same time)

When I was in elementary school, i got into a major argument with a boy in my class. I have forgotten what the argument was about, but i have never forgotten the lesson i learned that day.

I was convinced that i was right and he was wrong- and he was just as convinced that i was wrong and he was right. The teacher decided to teache us a very important lesson. She brought us up to the front of the class and placed him on one side of her desk and me on the other. In the middle of her desk was a large, rouund object. I could clearly see that it was black. She asked the boy what colour the object was. "White," he answered.

I couldn't believe he said that the object was white, when it was obviously black! Another argument starated between my classmate and me, this time about the colour of the object. The teacher told me to go stand where the boy was standing and told him to come stand where I had been.We changed places, and now she asked me what the color of the object was. I had to answer, "White." It was an object with two different colored sides, and from his viewpoint it was white. Only from my side it was black.

My teacher taught me a very important lesson that day: You must stand in the other person's shoes and look at the situation through their eyes in order to truly understand their perspective.

~Judie Paxton

# Teachers are those who use themselves as bridges,
Over which they invite their students to cross;
Then having facilitated their crossing, joyfully collapse,
Encouraging them to create bridges of their own.
~ Nikos Kazantzakis

2009-10-14T09:43:00.002+08:00

FAMILY

Thank You

For teaching me wrong from right and
encouraging me to keep my dreams in sight
For showing me to not let obstacles keep me down
And for creating a smile form my frown
For saying that you care about me
And for showing just how special love should be
For wiping my tears away when i'm feeling sad
And for calming me sown when i tend to get mad
For helping others with the good that you do
And for teachjing me that I should help others, too
For bugging me when i am feeling blue
And whispering into my ear "I LOVE YOU"
Thank You, family, for all that you do
I don't know where I would be if it weren't
for you.

~ James Malinchak

Am i Making the right decision?!!

2009-10-04T12:28:00.002+08:00

many people asked me recently whether i'm making the right decision.
i don't know how to respond to the question.
i just kept quiet.

making decision is tough.
after we decide, we tend to wonder whether the decision is the right one.

None of us knows what or where the decision will lead us to...
the only thing that we can do is to experience it and then learn from it...

Bye Bye, Ah JIn~Friendship Forever

2009-05-23T10:44:00.004+08:00

Usually we all like to listen to the way Mable says "Bye Bye". Nevertheless, i would not like to hear "Bye bye" from BoBo today. it's easy to say hi but it's difficult to say bye bye to others.

Mable,

We have been four years together...(Choy, we are not lesbians lah!!!) I mean we spent four years studying, doing assignments, watching dramas and movies, 38ing. All these memories are unforgettable... U will always be in my heart:)

Life goes on no matter how. dun be sad or i should say we all dun need to be sad because friendship never ends though we are staying far apart.

Moreover, saying goodbye today doesn't mean we are not going to meet up again. i know and i believe we will meet again someday.

I LOVE U, AH JIN/BOBO/MABLE.

WISH U ALL THE BEST IN YOUR LIFE...

sleepless night

2009-04-27T08:28:00.002+08:00

I like to sleep and i can easily fall asleep.
I can sleep anywhere and anytime.
Nevertheless, i couldn't sleep last night.

26/4/2009
A sleepless night for me
even after my exams
why???
it's coincidentally related to what my studied for KDO exam
- communication, conflicts and decision making.

Communication
Many people say that I'm good in communication
and i can communicate with anybody no matter how young or how old he/she is
but i can't deny the fact that communication breakdown happened last night
i did not know what to say and how to react
i just knew to listen and ...
so useless i was yesterday:(

Conflicts
Intrapersonal conflict:
i can not make up my mind
i have asked myself what i want since five months ago
but the funny thing is i do know how to answer myself
I'm a thinker
Maybe i just know how to think
but don't know how to act upon it
how useless I am:(

Interpersonal conflicts:
There's no way to avoid interpersonal conflicts
because nobody thinks exactly like you...
This is what happened to me as well
I hate conflicts
and i chose not to face it (Neglected the conflicts) till yesterday
I hate myself for ignoring the conflicts
I hate myself for being so useless:(

Decison Making
I used to be decisive
I knew what to do and what i wanted last time
Unluckily, i'm not anymore now
i'm just another indecisive girl in this world
sometimes i want this
and sometimes i want that
i do not know what i want actually
so lousy i am:(
i know what the problem is
i know how to analyse the problem
i know the alternative solutions
but i still cannot make the final decision...
I'm useless, right:(

but what i feel like doing right now is to wake myself up and face the reality!!!

no more exam...yeah!!!

2009-04-25T20:38:00.002+08:00

i sat two exams today and they were the last two papers which i had to sit in this four-year TESL course. Imagine, final semester in uni, final exam in uni after four years of struggling here!!! relieved after everything...

nope, not completely relieved yet because still have to wait for the results and see whether i pass this semester and graduate... hopefully, i can pass this semester and attend my convocation in the coming August...

TELIians farewell dinner

2009-04-06T08:50:00.002+08:00

We went to Hot Piper Cafe in Sunway Pyramid last Friday to have our farewell gathering. Not all of us joined the gathering. Nevertheless, 24 of us still had a great time there. We were very noisy in the cafe because we kept on chatting, joking, recalling how we knew each other four years ago and taking photos. We did not care about what others said. We stayed in our own world that night.

We had a gift exchange session which was determined by lucky draw. i was so lucky to get a gift from Tracy who comes from Perak She is really a Leng Lui from Perak!!! in contrast, i'm only a girl who is from Ipoh but not a leng lui...sigh:( haha, how about my gift? Karen was the lucky one who received my gift..muahaha:)

I thought i would manage to control myself from dropping tears but i failed to do so. This is because i was influenced by Anantha and Ziadatul who burst into tears when we hugged each other. *Those who know me well would know that i easily cry...

Last but not least, i must say thanks to Benjemin, Ching Pey and others who involved in planning this gathering. thanks

Girl talk

2009-03-31T07:45:00.003+08:00

My dearest roommates (Joan, Tarynn and Ching Pey) and I saw Benjemin ate KFC breakfast set in faculty yesterday. Tarynn's saliva kept on dropping- she couldn't help herself. She said she would like to have the same breakfast set the next day.

Four of us entered room around the same time yesterday which rarely happened last few months because Tarynn was busy with her drama practices while Ching Pey and I slept very early. I don't need to tell u all but u all can roughly guess what happened, don't you?!!! Girl talk again. i miss girl talk very much because we can share our feelings and thoughts with each other. sometimes we kill ourselves laughing or i should say i'm the only one who laugh madly even before sleep. i love this moment and i will really really miss this moment after i graduate and go back to hometown. I have no sisters at home to have girl talk with me...

Girl talks~ i miss girl talks.
But i will miss u all more, my dearest roommates.
~Reason: it's hard to find somebody whom i can freely express myself to though sometimes u all like to tease me or dun bother me... I love u all

Besides the girl talk, we decided to have breakfast set in KFC today. Yeah...yippie

~GrEaT~

2009-03-30T08:29:00.003+08:00

I was very busy last Tuesday till Thursday because i had a play performance in UM though i was not acting. i was there to help out. Thus, i had no time to write post.

Friday, another play again. This play is another assessment after the children's play. This time, a more serious play in which we really need to bear in mind what we have learnt about cross, nice pictures, height, sholders, voice projection, enunciation, pronunciation, tone...(u will know what i am talking about if u r taking this course together with me). Luckily, ur director, Pei Jie has planned everything nicely so we only need to practise till 12noon. Then, i should be free to write post, right?

No, i was still busy. Busy going out with Davy, having meal and watching movie with him. The same went on last Saturday. i was only free yesterday but i had no mood to write anything. why? This is because he was not with me yesterday. He had something to do in Bahau. Consequently, i went to Mid Valley with Joan loh... i thought i would not be so moody when i went for shopping but i was still down.

...I called him after i got back from shopping and he could sense that i was not in good mood and he decided to come over from Senawang just to have dinner with me and cheer me up. Suddenly, i became happy and cheerful. i felt so excited and blissful because he put me as his priority. He did not mind to travel though he was tired just because i was moody...so so so loving!!! Thanks, dear

ok, i promise...

2009-03-20T13:48:00.004+08:00

i promise
not to let you down,
not to worry about you at all times,
not to let you angry at me,
not to repeat the same mistakes,
not to nag at you.

i promise
i will always support you,
i will always cheer you up,
i will always encourage you,
i will always prioritise you
i will always keep my promise...

Nothing to do? all alone? nowhere to go? Why dont you check this out? :)

2009-03-17T08:23:00.001+08:00

The students of the Performance Strategy in the Western Theater of the University of Malaya will be presenting a play by Kuo Pao Kun titled Descendants of the Eunuch Admiral at Perdanasiswa, UM, on the 25th and 26th of March at 7pm. The same play will be staged on both days.

Descendants of the Eunuch Admiral tells the story of Zheng He or Cheng Ho, the famed Eunuch Admiral of the Ming dynasty. The play is a blend of little episodes of Zheng He's life and the true identity of a eunuch in the ancient China. Moving from Zheng He's castration to his attaining of fame, his adventures and explorations to his search for freedom, The Descendants of the Eunuch Admiral is a sophisticated, humorous, and thought-provoking work. ATTN: Ideal for those searching for the missing parts of their lives. Tickets sell at RM3 each. To obtain the tix, kindly contact 012-3819101 or email yingoying@gmail.com for more information. Get the tix ASAP before they are sold out and don't forget to invite your friends to tag along!

what's wrong with me?

2009-03-11T08:21:00.002+08:00

i don't know what's wrong with me yesterday. i repeat the same mistake which i will not forgive myself though many people may think that it is just a small mistake. i always tell myself that i have to be aware and alert so that i will not repeat what i have done wrong before but i failed to do so yesterday...haih!!!

One way street~ by Ted Long

2009-03-06T16:47:00.009+08:00

borrowed the rabbit's ears from Reggie

After few weeks of practice and nervousness, we finally staged the children's play this afternoon. we were the fifth group to perform and my role was Bora, the boar which was the tiger's prey. we all had fun though it was one of our assessments...muahaha!!! Hopefully our lecturer likes our play...

sad to hear the bad news

2009-02-20T17:36:00.002+08:00

I heard from my mum yesterday morning that somebody's aunt is suffering from cancer. Moreover, the cancer is in the 4th phase. Nothing that i can do for her except praying for her. besides, i wish the somebody will be okay as well because i know she is weak.

Sponsorship Vs. costumes

2009-02-20T08:12:00.003+08:00

I'm taking a course named "Strategy in Performing Western Theatre" and i work under costumes. Costumes doesn't mean only clothes but also make up and accessories. I prefer make up the most. Indeed, i'm waiting for reply from a make up team since i do not have confidence to make up for all the eunuchs...i mean Chinese traditional make up!!!

Then, i suddenly work beyond my job because of my dear dear. He helped me to ask for sponsorship as he does not want to see me wake up in the early morning and prepare sandwiches to raise fund. I feel really really touched. I do not mind to work more by making contact with the sponsors and deal with them.

Should i involve in both sponsorship and costumes?

Thanks, dear dear...

2009-02-19T14:56:00.003+08:00

Darling,

Sweetheart,

Honey,

Peanut butter,

Dear dear,

Thanks...thanks...thanks!!!

You put your works aside just because you want to help me and don't want to see me suffer from raising fund by selling sandwiches for my course. You know, i don't care how much they sponsor us or whether they will sponsor us. what i really tell you now is i appreciate what you have done for me...

YOU ARE THE BEST!!! you make changes in my life...i mean positive changes...Yeah

Finally, i have the courage to write this post

2009-02-18T07:46:00.002+08:00

Was yesterday a bad day?
~No~

Was yesterday a good day then?
~No~

Reasons:

1. I heard from Davy that he had a bad dream about us the night before. I was a bit down but not as down as him. Thus, i tried to play my role to comfort him since the early morning.

2. I did something wrong to some of my sincerely friends because of the grouping problem. I suddenly felt like I was so bad that I betrayed them. I felt guilty to them. I would like to take this opportunity to say sorry to them.
** SORRY, MY DEAREST FRIENDS...
I couldn't even control myself from dropping tears because FRIENDS play an important role in my life. You may wonder what the problem was until I cried. In fact, it was just a small matter. All because i did not know how to say "NO" to my friends whom i feel that i'm comfortable and happy to work with them as well. I feel that i'm bad when i cannot fulfil my friends' wishes. This incident let me recalled what happened two years back when i had to make up my mind where to stay and whom to live with. Some of my juniors asked me to stay in hostel while Katrina asked me to stay with her in UT, Chew Lin and etc. I cried that time oso since i had no choice but to decide one place only....Haih....
~Am i made of water? Why i easily cry?

3. I lost my special and new key chain after i came back to desa. Luckily, the most significant and important part of the key chain is still with me. I guess, some of you know which part i refer to...Hehe!!!

the title of this post is "Finally, i have the courage to write this post" because what Tarynn said last few day is corrct. All my previous posts are kind of happy ones. Actually, i seldom reveal my unhappiness to others as i do not want to let others worry about me... Nevertheless, this post is ~

presentation

2009-02-16T18:17:00.002+08:00

My group are supposed to present tomorrow but we exchange with the other group since Yegnesc may not be able to make it next week.

Many of us are not happy with the presentation because we find that we can't learn much from presentations. This is especially true to me as i can't really concentrate no matter how hard i try...i try to focus but don't know what happen to my brain??!

WHAT TO DO?

a SpeCiaL Velentine's Day

2009-02-16T16:21:00.005+08:00

12am on 14/2/2009 (Saturday): i received a song from you. One of our favourite song, "Ni Shi Wo Zhui Shen Ai De Nu Ren". ~A surprise to me.

9.30am on 14/2/2009 (Saturday): You picked me up from where i stay and we went to One Utama together. We dressed up nicely because of the special day...We spent few hours there.

2.00pm on 14/2/2009 (Saturday): You fetched me to go Jaya groceries in Jaya 33 to get all the ingredients that he need for the spaghetti.

Many people would choose to have dinner outside to celebrate Valentine's Day. However, i do not think the same. i prefer to stay at home and have home-made dinner. Thanks, Dear. What u prepared for me last Saturday was really very very delicious. 10 out of 10.

U may ask me "really?"

My answer is absolutely "YES"

U know how touched and happy i was when i saw u walked here and there to get all the ingredients (chicken, carrots, mushroom soup, cheese and spaghetti) for the special meal?!!! i almost wanted to cry in front of you but i managed to control myself from doing that. Then, again, when i saw you open the cans in kitchen, i really wanted to stand beside you and help you...(hehe....you know what happened later on, don't you??? SHY SHY lah!!!) After that, you offered yourself to get the can opener from Angela while you did not know where her house is precisely just because you wanted to treat me as princess that day made me wanna cry again...That's why i went to bath instead of cooking together with you in kitchen...
**though i am not as good as you when comes to cooking!!!

15/2/2009 (Sunday): Dear and I went to One Utama again. He bought me a "MOO MOO". I like it very very much...this "moo moo" has special mission...hehe!!!

Tears of happiness was dropping from my eyes and heart continuously even until today...and your face will keep on appearing in my mind. The only thing that i can do now is to look at the picture we took together and touch the necklace you gave me~

luckily, i have delicious porridge

2009-02-10T20:36:00.003+08:00

I do not know why i feel a bit moody these two days, may it due to i have nothing to do or i miss somebody. As many people know that i like to do homework and i don't like to read unless the reading materials are interesting enough to capture my attention and pleasurable to read. I already completed what i have to do for most of my assignments and thus, i feel like i have nothing to do and too boring till moody. moreover, somebody has to work and cannot be here with me for all the time...Meanwhile, many of my friends are busy with their works. Consequently, the only thing i can do is to ...

fortunately, i had delicious porridge to eat. The instant porridge had a magical effect on me as it cheered me up. (*the instant porridge needs only 30 seconds to be cooked.) Now i'm not moody anymore...yeah!!!

what can i do to help u...

2009-02-10T20:26:00.005+08:00

Friend,
i blame myself for being useless when you need help,
i do not know what i can do to help you but only listen to your problem.
besides, i can only pray for you...
i wish everything will be fine with you!!!

Children's play

2009-02-09T14:07:00.002+08:00

Children's play, children's play,
where are you???

u know how hard to look for you,
i put in effort to locate you,
but seems like you do not want to appear in front of my eyes
and want to play hide-and-seek with me...
sigh

i want to find you,
i really need you,
especially the good one which is easy to perform!!!

open house in Juayn's Kajang house

2009-02-09T12:23:00.003+08:00

As usual, Juayn invited us to go to her house during CNY. The only difference this year is she invited us to go to her place on 14th of CNY instead of 8th of CNY. (Her whole family had to attend her cousin's wedding on "nian chu ba")

I think i'm the only one who always visit to her house among all the TESLians since my second year as an undergraduate until i'm familiar with her house. For instance, i know all her warm-hearted family members and even where Milo or Neacafe is...hehe (^_^)

I already went to her house for three CNYs continuously. Nevertheless, this time differs from the last two times as i brought along Davy. He fetched some of my friends and i to go there last night and he spent time with us as well. i feel glad that he could mingle with my friends, may it due to the fact that he is quite sociable or talkative. 100% for sure is that i do not want him to feel bored while he has no choice but to accompany me to spend time with my friends.

Thanks again, Davy!!!

Cinemas~ sweet memory

2009-02-09T12:09:00.004+08:00

i watched "The Wedding Games" in KLCC's cinema last Tues with Davy. Why we travelled so far to KLCC just to watch that movie while we could go Cineleisure which is near to my house??? This is because he knew that i never watched movie there.

Then, Davy and i went to the premier class in Gardens' GSC Signature to watch "Pink Panther" last Sat since both of us never been there and our friend, Ivy, keeps on telling us that we should go there to watch movies. both of us like the environment in Gardens' GSC Signature though the movie ticket is more expensive.

***In fact, I do not mind whether the atmosphere of the cinema is good but i like the fact that we spend time to create sweet memory together...

~THANKS~

2009-02-05T15:50:00.010+08:00

THANKS

for taking care of me,

for loving me,

for giving me support,

for giving me guidance,

for being tolerant towards my stubbornness,

for giving me freedom,

for being respectful,

for giving me chances to be myself in front of you,

.......

***The above gratitude is addressed to my loving family, Davy and friends.
(of course i still have a lot of friends whose photos are not shown here...but you all should know who i mean, right?)

~Friends, you know that i will not forget you all even though i did not upload your pictures in this post, right?!!

***I really mean what I say

it' hard to decide...

2009-02-04T19:54:00.003+08:00

...TESL, a four-year-course...almost comes to an end (forget about all the assignments...)
the most popular question i heard recently is "Are you going to apply for posting?"
I tried not to think about it at first.

However, i have no choice but to make decision now......ta~ta~i decided to pass up the application form!!! Some of my friends like Tracy and Joan asked me when they knew my decision. They asked me why suddenly i make such decision and my answer is "I dun know. Suddenly, i've a strong feeling that i should hand in the form and i've the passion to teach."

Passion?
Are you sure, Jeneft Aw?

i'm not sure whether my passion to become a teacher can last long but there is one thing for sure- i will try my best to be a good and responsible teacher.

A different Chinese New Year

2009-02-04T19:33:00.002+08:00

Different?
How different can it be?

Chinese New Year this year is

different because i was the latest to go back home among my housemates and my family members

different because i went to Kek Lok Dong with family on the 1st day of CNY

different because i did not meet all my hometown friends (i just gather with some)

different because i forgot to wish my best friends' Happy birthday (sorry, Poay Ling and Juayn)

different because i celebrated CNY together with Davy

different because i went to Pesta Tanglung near Sunway City with Davy and family on the 5th day of CNY

different because i took a lot of photos with family

different because i went back to PJ by following his car...

Tips to build a happy relationship...

2009-01-18T20:55:00.002+08:00

I came across an article entitled "To Love and to Cherish" in StarSpecial this afternoon and i think it's very useful. So i'd like to post it here.

Tips to build a happy relationship:

1. Be willing to change.

2. Be honest to your partner.

3. Avoid competition between the two of you.

4. Both must complement each other.

5. Avoid being possessive and selfish.

6. Be kind, gentle, patient and loving.

7. Keep romance alive in your relationship.

8. Say sorry if you have made a mistake. (Removing your ego!!!)

9. Be supportive in whatever he or she does.

10. Have integrity and this will gain honour.

11. Be a good listener, pay attention and be open.

12. Give surprises as it adds tonic to the romance.

13. Cracking jokes helps to build cheerful relationship.

14. Never bring past problems and unpleasant incidents.

15. Develop compassion for your partner and yourself.

16. Know the likes and dislikes to shape the relationship.

17. Exercise sweetness of speech and never use harsh words.

18. Treat your partner the way you would like to be treated.

19. Leave little notes for him or her when you miss each other.

20. Express appreciation by saying thank you even for everyday things.

21. Practise forgiveness as sometimes mistakes are made unintentionally.

~Personally, i strongly agree with what the writer says here... How about you???

~ SuRpRiSe~

2009-01-15T17:57:00.003+08:00

i had fun in theatre performance class yesterday. after class ended at 5pm, HE picked me up at my faculty and we went to Jusco in One Utama. i asked him why he need to go Jusco. He told me that he had to help his mum buy some groceries. i wondered why he wanted to buy here instead of his hometown at first but i did not ask him. We shopped in Jusco and tried to look for the stuffs which he wanted but we failed to find any there. We went to Tesco after he asked his friend where he bought the stuffs.

We had dinner in Ikea before we went to shop for the groceries. (The food there is okay. ) both of us finished our meal within half an hour as we were very hungry that time...haha... Then, we went into Padini Concept Store. i could not resist looking at heels and sunglasses. eventually, i brought a pair of heels and sunglasses home... *am i a shopaholic???

~ Our mission began: we started to shop for groceries. in fact, i did not really shop as i did not what his mum wanted him to buy. So i just walked together with him and looked at what he was buying. i realised there was something wrong as all the stuffs that he put in the trolley seem like something that i prefer to eat. Finally, he admitted that all the things were actually for me and not for his mum......He told me his main purpose to travelled from Seremban yesterday was to buy me all these because he worried that i do not have proper meal at PJ home...... For me, this surprise is touching. ~

In short , HE is very caring. He always cares about me and sometimes he even ignore himself!!!
THANKS. THANKS FOR EVERYTHING. I appreciate what you have done for me!!!

there's always rainbow after thunderstorm

2009-01-13T20:21:00.004+08:00

Friends, trust me, everything will be fine. just look at my blog - optimistic and happy (^_^)

There's always rainbow after thunderstorm....

get close to your friends; get even closer to your enemies

2009-01-13T19:08:00.002+08:00

Angela said "Get close to your friends; get even closer to your enemies" in Kepimpinan Diri dan Organisasi class this morning and i personally quite agree with this statement. it's impossible to have no enemy in this world because we all live in a competitive world. It's just depends on how u look at the competition and enemy. If u take challenge and enemy positively, they may be a source of motivation which make you to go further.

In fact, Prof. Quek always says that enemies are those who can really help us to improve oursleves because they dare to criticise on us and i agree with her. Remember, knowing ourselves is not enough, being and doing must come after knowing.
* Enemies help us to know ourselves better...haha (^_^)

KLCC aquarium and Maggie mee party....

2009-01-11T11:07:00.002+08:00

Davy and i went to KLCC to visit the aquarium yesterday and we had great time there. he asked me to touch the small DNA shark. he demonstrated to me as i told him i was scared. he held my hand and touched the shark together. however, the other shark was swimming towards my hand and its tail coincident touched my hand. i was shocked and i screamed...eventually, my pants are wet!!! haih, i'm so timid...

after that, we walked around KLCC until 7++pm. we did not want to have dinner in KLCC as we already had our lunch there. guess what, we finally decided to cook maggie mee at home. he asked me to call my housemates to see whether they had their dinner. we then went to buy sausagee,carrots, eggs and chicken soup maggie mee. the chicken soup maggie mee was purposely bought for one of my roommate as she cannot take spicy food while all the instant noodles which i have are spicy. after that, we went back home and my roommate told me that she had dinner already and she was just joking that she wanted to join the maggie mee party. aftr get everything prepared, i went to take bath. he cooked for me at home while i took my bath. he was so caring that he cooked something extra for my roommate as he realised that she did not eat much for her dinner. of course he just cooked a small portion for her as he worried that she would be too full if he cooked too much for her...although the maggie mee is just sth common, he is willing to cook for me and this is what makes me feel touched...THANKS

i feel that i'm very LUCKY

2009-01-11T10:29:00.002+08:00

Last Friday, i went to Cineleisure with my coursemates and HIM. we went there without any other purpose but to watch "Australia" and "Bedtime stories" as we separated ourselves into two groups. 6 of us watched "Australia" and the other 3 watched "Bedtime Stories". i watched both movies and i like both. nevertheless, the main focus of this post is not on the movies.

the highlight of this post is HIM. many of my friends were shocked when they knew that Davy would join us for the movie. they were surprised because they wondered how a working person like him can join us last Friday afternoon. the reason is he rushed himself to finish all his works before Friday and drove from Seremban to join us. this would be easily accepted if only both of us watched the movie but it was hard to believe that he was willing to do that while my friends were with us even though he met my friends before. after the movie, we walked around The Curve. then, all of us had dinner together. he did not mind to have dinner with my friends and he was trying his best to participate in our conversation. fortunately, he is sociable and he could mix well with my friends. or else, i would feel guilty for making him bored. not many guys are willing to spend time with his girlfriend's friends in this world especially when the guys have to make sacrifice for that. i'm very lucky that he is willing to do so!!!

Assignments-Thanks, all my group members!!!

2009-01-11T10:18:00.003+08:00

every semester usually begins with happiness. everyone of us is happy to see each other after few months of holiday. this semester is not excluded. we hugged each other and we had countdown party together. we all are trying to enjoy our last semester in UM as undergraduates...yeah!!!

however, we have to face reality that a lot of assignments and presentations are waiting for us. not to mention how many assignments and presentations we have. luckily, most of them are group works and i have good members in my group. they are responsible, hardworking, dedicated to assignments and presentations...last but not least, they know how to make our work easier by having jokes in between...thanks, my lovely group members (^_^)

Highway?!!!

2009-01-06T15:19:00.003+08:00

do u think u can understand a person within a month? i would say "100% NO" if u propose this question to me last time. however, i will say "YES" if u ask me now. this is because my instinct helps me to know and understand HIM a lot even though just after three weeks i knew him. u may think that i'm telling lie but this is the truth. this may on the grounds that both of us are similar to each other in some ways...due to the similarities which we have, highway exists between us and we can understand each other quite well within a short period of time...

unexpected things happened...haha!!!

2009-01-05T22:39:00.002+08:00

i worked during the holidays as i wanted to earn some money and gain new experience. everything was under my control until HE appeared. the first impression that he gave me was that he is unfriendly since he likes to tease people. he teased me on the first day he met me. i never met this kind of people before. all those who tease me are only those who are very closed to me because teasing is actually quite funny. i dun mind of being teased but not the first tim we met!!! therefore, i thought that he is impolite.

however, i changed my opinion when i saw how polite and serious he is when he served customers. the way he talked to customers and worked impressed me. i found out that he is quite similar to me as both of us are very serious when we need to be serious and we can be crazy than any others when it's time for us to relax and have fun.

he is very talkactive. in favt, he is the most talkactive guy i ever met. hence, both of us can talk or sms each other from the early morning until night even though we just knew for three days. it's very comfortable to chat with him as i can talk about anything and i can be myself. people who are around me asked me whether i'm tired of talking so much and my answer is i'm NOT tired at all...in my opinion, it's hard to get someone whom u find comfortable to talk to...i appreciate that he appears in my life!!!

furthermore, he is vry observant and caring. he knew that i scare of cats and dogs despite that he only knew me for two days. he protected me by chasing away the cats and dogs. in addition, he remembers whatever i say such as what i like and what i dislike. for instance, i like to eat chicken breast and dislike chicken drumstick. he will accompany me to eat chicken breast even though he likes drumstick the most...u may think that this is just a small matter but i feel very touched already...

10 weeks Working experience

2008-12-30T16:12:00.006+08:00

i worked for Panasonic Viera roadshow during my holiday. i have learned a lot of things from this job. what makes this job so precious is not the salary but friends. (all my colleagues are my good friends now.) we have spent 10 weeks together. we stayed in hotel, chat, eat, watch movie and sleep together. all the roadshow girls are younger than me. luckily, they are very friendly to me and we had great time together. we have similar interest and topic to talk about. for instance, comestic products, make up skills, fashion......

Based on these ten weeks, i found out that one would only enjoy a job if his/her colleagues are friendly and good to him/her. u would not enjoy the job no matter how high ur salary is if ur colleagues are not good. u would be demotivated when u work in a working environment which has only workload, workload ad workload. u will find work enjoyable when u can joke around. if possible, it would better if u have happy hour after working hours with colleagues. u will not feel tired or lazy to go to work when u enjoy yourselves though your salary is not as high as others. pls bear in mind that there is no free lunch in this world. u definitely have to work harder when u are given higher pay. money is important but the most important thing is u enjoy your work (^_^)

Working again...a bit worried!!!

2008-09-30T18:37:00.004+08:00

i can still recall how i felt before i stepped into Seafield for my teaching practice and during the first two weeks of my internship. i was worried about many things such as i did not know how the students behave, what the school culture is and so on and so forth. luckily, i did enjoy very much throughout the process!!! Hurrays...

however, i have to worry again. i'm worried because i will try a new job from tomorrow onwards. i've 3-month-holiday. thus, i plan to work part-time to earn some money and gain new experience. i am so fortunate that my friend recommended one job to me. the job requires me to promote Panasonic products like handphone, Plasma, LCD... i accept the job since i want to learn some new things. i think this job will be totally different from my previous jobs. i worked in VCD rental shop, boutique, gift shop before. besides, i worked as nurse and tuition teacher too. nevertheless, i started to worry. i worry about the workload and the colleagues...i'm not sure whether i can cope with the new job and i doubt whether i can get along with the new collegues... i have no choice but to tell myself "don't worry, everything will be fine." i have to be confident of myself !!!

sorry for not updating my blog for few days...and SELAMAT HARI RAYA

2008-09-25T13:15:00.003+08:00

i'm feeling great in hometown. i really enjoy myself at home..home sweet home!!! i was too busy last week as one of my Sarawak friends visit to Ipoh and i became her tour guide. then, my eldest brother came back (in fact, he sits right beside me now.) my elder brother will come back tomorrow. so, i will be busy again...keep in touch (^_^)
i wish every Muslims SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!!

yippie...finally, i can go back to hometown...hurrays!!!

2008-09-17T22:49:00.004+08:00

finally, i can go back home tomolo. i did not go back home since June this year. WHY? i couldn't go back last few months due to the teaching practice. i miss my parents, my mum's cooking, my house, my hometown friends, hometown delicious food and so on and so forth. i can't wait to see my parents tomorrow... wish everybody stay healthy, smart, happy always...HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!

p/s: i seldom online in hometown. Contact me at o17...../ o16....... bye!!!!!

yay...the trip was so fun..thanks to my friends!!! Friendship 4eva

2008-09-17T21:48:00.004+08:00

i went to Genting with 6 of my close friends from 16 to 17 September 2008. we went there in order to celebrate Mable's birthday and relax after our teaching practice. we did not drive there. instead, we used public transport. we checked in at Theme Park Hotel as soon as we reached there at about 11.15a.m.

then, we went to outdoor theme park to play (or shd i say to SCREAM??? i think many ppl know that i can really scream...haha...) many of my friends dared not to try space shot. thus, only Poay Ling and i lined up to wait for out turn. She was a bit afraid as she never played space shot before. therefore. i tried to convince her that space shot is not very scary and comfort her..."dun worry. just enjoy urself and shout...by this way, u can really release ur tension...moreover, i'm here to accompany u. dun worry!!! " i think u know what happened next- both of us screamed as loud as we can..(my friends who dared not to play the space shot told me that they could hear my scream from far far away since my voice is very high-pitched...do u believe what my friends said???) sitting beside me was a funny and weird Negro who laughed crazily while the rest screamed "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh". i dun know what's wrong with her...???

after that, we went into indoor theme park to play hard...we played as many games as possible though we were tired. we all screamed together, laughed together, ate together, teased each other and so on. all these made our trip so fun and enjoyable...yeah...Friendship Forever!!!

i've learnt a lot of things from my ex-students...thanks for ur feedback

2008-09-14T22:40:00.000+08:00

i asked my ex-students (current friends) to write feedback for me last Thurs (4F) and Fri (4A). i told them that they can comment on anything including what they dislike about me and my teaching. this is because i want to learn from them so that i can improve myself as well as my teaching. i did not have time to read the feedback in school. thus, i was only able to read all the comments aafter school dismissed.

based on my observation and what they wrote, i learn that they all prefer sth interesting and new. for instance, songs, pictures, drawing and so on and so forth. furthermore, they do not like to use school textbook. they also dislike to be given homework as they complain about they do not have sufficient time to do homework. in addition, they hate to copy exercises from blackboard or workbooks because they think that copying is time-consuming. they are not really into literature and this is especially true for Science stream students since they think that literature is too general, vague and subjective.

besides, i found out that they do not like to paste their works onto their exercise books. this is most probably because they don't like to use glue and it is time-consuming. i think i can understand how they feel as i experienced the same thing before. from my point of view, Form 4 students are mature and independent enough to keep their works systematically. they know how to arrange their works accordingly. hence, i think they would rather keep all the worksheets in a file than paste them onto exercise books.

moreover, i found out that a simple reward like Cloud-9 can cheer them up and motivate them to do better. they like candies very much. CANDIES play an important role in bringing lessons alive. from my point of view, teachers can give their students candies from time to time so that students are more into the lessons and more ready to learn.

besides, i think Form 4 students not only need a teacher who teaches at all times in their classroom but also a teacher who can be their "aged friend" . i say this because a teacher can only know what students need the most by this way. to clarify this, students would only dare to tell what is really in their mind if their teacher is willing to listen to their viewpoint as a friend.

i have gained experience, new knowledge, friendship and others from this teaching practice...i hope all these would enable me to improve myself as well as my teaching (...if i really become a teacher in the future...)

surprise...surprise...and surprise; tears...tears...and tears!!!

2008-09-13T18:00:00.003+08:00

i will not forget what happened on 12/9/2008 (Friday), the last day of my teaching practice in SMK Seafield...i felt extraordinarily touched yesterday not only because of 4A and 4F friends but also some "friends" who study in different classes and whom i did not teach before...i did not expect that they would treat me so well until they gave me cards, presents, and even wrote my name in their blogs...some of them even told me that i'm very famous in Seafield...am i? i'm not sure...anyway, i appreciate what they have done for me!!!

hehe...i hugged many people including ex-students and teachers yesterday. of course i did not hug guys even though some of them requested. in fact, i dun mind. however, there's certain school culture and i have to respect the school culture. i dun think it's a good idea to hug guys in school. therefore, i only shaked hand with them..LoL

i dun know whether u believe me or not, my eyes are full of tears now. tears will come out naturally when i think of my beloved "friends" in Seafield, when i look at the feedback/cards/letters they wrote for me and even when i look at the photos i took with them. dun worry, i will not let my tears come out. i will not cry since my eyes are painful after so much of crying last two days....

p/s: sorry if i ur photos are not here. i took pictures with too many people and it's impossible for me to upload all the photos. sorry!!! however, u r always on my mind even without ur photos here

bookmarkssssss........sorry if i didn't mark ur exercise books!!!

2008-09-13T16:13:00.001+08:00

i kept on asking myself what i should give to students last week. i decided to give them chocolates long long time ago. but i thought of doing sth which they can keep. hence, i decided to make bookmarks for them.

you are wrong if you think that making bookmarks is easy. i spent at least 3-4 days to make 112 bookmarks. cutting, pasting, drawing, searching for meaningful quotes, printing, cutting again, pasting againsigning, writing messages and drawing again (footprints)...all my friends said that i'm very patient in doing all the bookmarks. in fact, i dun think so. this is because i planned to write different message for each of them at first. however, i ran out of time since i still had to mark students' exercise books which they submitted the last minute. SORRY if i did not mark your exercise books. i have tried my best but i really had not sufficient time...sorry...pls forgive me...PLEASE...) consequently, i did not manage to write different message for each of them...i'm SORRY for that also.

after few days of hard work, all the bookmarks were eventually done. yeah!!! i'm sorry if u dislike the design of the bookmarks...i wish they all will like the bookmark and keep it nicely...if possible, try to think of me when u look at the bookmark... (am i greedy?!!!...LoL)

haih, cried again

2008-09-13T12:03:00.000+08:00

Angeline and Shiva were not in the class photo...

what happened to me?

they are super duper excellent. they are my good friends now...haha(^_^)

yummy...so delicious. thank u, Pn. Doris!!! thank you, 4A friends (^_^)

'crybaby' is my latest nickname given by Joan and many ex-students (they all are my friends now...yippie (^_^) agree with her. so pity!!! i have tried my best to control my emotion and told myself not to cry especially in front of students. however, i am who i am. i wll cry whenever i feel touched and i feel touched easily. that's why i was given such nickname... (uuh...uuh...)

many of my ex-students asked me to stay strong and dun cry. but i want to clarify here. i cried not because i'm weak or sad. i cried because they are so touching. they have done a lot of things for me. for examples, they gave me THANK YOU cards, chocolates, organised a farewell party for me and so on. i will not forget what they have done for me...they will always be in my mind as well as my heart!!!

in fact, i didn't expect that they all prepared all these for me as i dun think i deserve them. i didn't know whether they enjoyed my lessons, i didn't know whether they have learnt sth from me, i didn't know whether i'm qualified to be their teacher.......i didn't expect them to like me as i was very strict and fierce particularly during the first day of my teaching practice. (many Seafieldians would agree if i say i'm the scariest and fiercest trainee teacher they have ever met; i think 4A and 4F students know what i mean here!!! hehe...SORRY if i scared u all. i didn't mean to be mad at you all during the first day. i introduced myself as Ms. angry Aw because i followed my lecturers' and seniors' advice to show students that i'm fierce and strict so that they would not bully me...as a result, i was described as the "FIERCEST" among the four of us...LoL!!! )

Hence, i was so surprised that they did so many things for me. (i have already written what my dearest 4F students did for me in the previos post...) i purposely exchanged relief class with Ms. Chee so that i could spend more time with my beloved 4A students yesterday. suddenly, Rahga asked me whether i will be free during recess. then, she asked me to go to Taman Herba, together with Joan, Mable and Chee. after that, she went out from Chemistry lab (if i'm not mistaken, she went out with somebody. i think Edward is one of them. the rest, i'm not sure as i was emo that time.) after about 10 minutes, she rushed back and told me to go to Tapak Nilam after school dismiss instead of Taman Herba during recess. i did not know that they went out just to ask for Pn. Wang's permission to buy cakes for me...they are so touching!!!

After school dismissed, some of my 4A "friends" came to staffroom to hurry my friends and i. unfortunately, i had to write down their marks and pass it to Pn. Latha. "SORRY for being late"...finally, everything settled. four of us went to Tapak Nilam with many "bodyguards" around us...LoL (^_^)...eventually, v reached there. i was surprised to see many of my 4A friends were there (few of them were not there as they had something to do in CF). they all stayed back for me...this is unbelievable!!! haih, i cried again...most of my eyeliner and mascara were gone...so UGLY!!!

Then, i was requested to give speech by Pn. Doris and my 4A friends. what?!! speech again...after that, it was time to eat the cakes...the cakes were the most delicious cake i have ever tried as they were full of my friends' love ad wish...THANKS!!! one of the highlighted events was Pn. Doris fed me...haha...all these are too touching!!! MUAKS...i LOVE u all (^_^)

Seafieldians (not only my dearest 4A and 4F friends but also all the others Seafieldians), i wish u BEST of LUCK and ALL the BEST...wish u all stay healthy, young, happy, handsome/ pretty FOREVER...keep in touch ya...MIss U all...

Wall-E is better than what i think

2008-09-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

i watched Wall-E last Friday. indeed, i did not feel like watching such cartoon because i thought that it would be very boring.
however, i did not have choice but to watch this cartoon in cinema last Friday. it is not as boring as i thought though the characters do not talk much. i like the theme of the cartoon which is related to environment. i think v really need to look into this issue seriously as our mother earth has fallen sick. v should play our role to save the environment...Reduce, reuse, recycle...

they are so touching...

2008-09-06T21:46:00.000+08:00

supposingly, i should write this post last Friday. however, i was too tired after watching Wall-E in Summit that day. it's better late than never.

many things happened last Friday. first of all, i entered 4F to wait for my 4A students after recess. i saw some of the 4F students were busy writing something at the back of the classroom but i was not sure what they are writing. after the bell rang, 4F students went to Chemistry lab and 4A students came into the classroom. i started to teach "si tenggang's homecoming" as soon as 4A students have settled down. i was confused by the school timetable and the school bell. therefore, i completed the lesson in a hurry. suddenly, students told me that they still had about 20 minutes before the English period ended. what else i can do other than telling my feelings to my students.

then, i suddenly recalled that i brought camera to school that day. i wasted no time to take out my camera and started to capture pictures of my lovely students. i tried my best to convince one of the students to join the rest in the picture since i know that he is camera-shy. haha...he did join the rest in the end!!! after taking a few pictures of them, time was almost up. so, i planned to stop the photo shoot session. after that, i asked them to go to Physics lab but they did not want to go. dun ask me why as i also do not the answer. i wondered was it because they were lazy to attend Physics lesson?!! however, the monitor of the class, Shiva suggested to the whole class to take photo together with me and he went out to find Ken Yoong to be the cameraman. wow, we were too noisy that time until the teacher in the opposite classroom looked at us...due to my height, they asked me to stand on a chair. i had no choice but to take off my high heels and stand on the chair...haha...Believe it or not, a TEACHER did this in class! i dun think i looked like a teacher that moment. (indeed, i want students to treat me as their friend rather than a teacher once i've completed the lesson and when i'm not in school. this enable me to know and understand them better. then, i can prepare a lesson which meets their needs and suits their interest.) THANK YOU for this memorable moment!!!

after that, i went back to staffroom with Mable. suddenly, Kuok Wei came to find me. he asked me to go to their class for a while. i was shocked and asked him why but he did not answer me. so i followed him to go to their class. i was so surprised that almost all the 4F students sang a song and gave me a BIG thank you card when i entered their class. uuh...uuh...i couldn't control my tears and i started crying!!! Syamirah gave me tissue and asked me not to cry...haih, i think it was so embarrassing to cry in front of students. i have tried my best to control my emotion but i am who i am. i will definitely cry when i feel touched......anyway, 4F students, THANK YOU.

it's complicated!!!

2008-09-02T18:32:00.001+08:00

if u ask me to describe my feeling now, i dun know how to answer. i think 'complicated' will be the word which best describe my feeling right now. this is because i feel happy and sad at the same time. Happy because i'm going to complete my teaching practice. in anther word, i pass this semester. (^_^)
on the other hand, i'm sad since i dun feel like leaving my students in school though they are playful and naughty sometimes. i feel like i become more cheerful after i get closer to the students. this may be due to the fact that they are still teenagers who do not need to worry too much. they think in a simple way and they do whatever they like. their funny behaviour and creativity always cheer me up!!! therefore, i wish i can stay longer in this school and spend more time with my lovely students...

Hi, Seafield students

2008-09-02T15:53:00.000+08:00

"Good morning" is not common in Seafield. instead, students like to say 'hi'. this is unusual to me because i thought 'hi' is used when v greet our friends. nevertheless, i have adapted myself to this new culture. i will reply students by saying 'hi' as well.

"Hi"....nice to meet u all in SMK Seafield. THANKS for leaving footprint in my life. my life becomes more meaningful because of U...U...and U. Thanks, students!!!

feeling great today

2008-07-21T17:04:00.000+08:00

yippie....i'm feeling extraordinary great today. you may wonder why!!!

in fact, there's nothing special. i'm happy just because i was able to teach according to the lesson plan completely. my students behaved quite well today compared to the previous lesson and thus, i managed to carry out the 5 stages of activities. in another words, i did not waste my efforts in preparing all the teaching materials for today's lesson. thanks, students. i will be very grateful if my students always behave well during my lessons....i really hope that all my students would impress me and give me some sweet memories!!!

in my opinion, it's easy to be a teacher. however, it is super duper hard if i want to be a GOOD teacher. this is because a GOOD teacher not only teach students certain knowledge, but also instill good moral values among students and make them a better person from every aspects. i dun know whether i can be a GOOD teacher. but i promise i will try and i hope i can...

sorry for being so emo today

2008-07-18T16:34:00.000+08:00

sorry for being so emo today... in fact, i tried my best to control myself not to be emo (i think some of you might know what happened today). nevertheless, i failed. this is because i easily cry no matter it is because of happiness or sadness (many of my friends know about this). i was emo today because i did not know whether i could be a good teacher in the future. i started to question myself whether i should become a teacher though i would like to do so!!!

i know it's useless to blame myself. therefore, what i should do now is to enhance my teaching skills and learn how to calm down whenever i am sad...please give me some time. i promise i will try my best!!!!!!

am i gloomy? but i remember i did smile...

2008-07-16T20:58:00.000+08:00

i asked my students to write a short essay to introduce themselves in an interesting way. instead of the common content, i want something creative and interesting. so, many of them wrote their email address in their essay and some of them invited me to read their blog. consequently, i spent about 45 minutes to read their blog just now. i found out that one of them described me as gloomy and kind of scary. that's why i am wondering now..."am i gloomy?"

but i remember i did smile even during my first day of teaching practice. i do not deny that i was quite strict that day. but i'm not very strict compared to......moreover, i told my students i can be very nice if they co-operate with me. in addition, small rewards will be given to those who actively participate in my lesson. (of course the actice participation i mean here is not talking and chatting in classroom without paying attention to my lesson!!!) indeed, i dun want to get angry at all times since being angry is not good for health. i would rather choose to be an optimistic and happy teacher who is always smiling in front of her students......