Working again...a bit worried!!!

i can still recall how i felt before i stepped into Seafield for my teaching practice and during the first two weeks of my internship. i was worried about many things such as i did not know how the students behave, what the school culture is and so on and so forth. luckily, i did enjoy very much throughout the process!!! Hurrays...

however, i have to worry again. i'm worried because i will try a new job from tomorrow onwards. i've 3-month-holiday. thus, i plan to work part-time to earn some money and gain new experience. i am so fortunate that my friend recommended one job to me. the job requires me to promote Panasonic products like handphone, Plasma, LCD... i accept the job since i want to learn some new things. i think this job will be totally different from my previous jobs. i worked in VCD rental shop, boutique, gift shop before. besides, i worked as nurse and tuition teacher too. nevertheless, i started to worry. i worry about the workload and the colleagues...i'm not sure whether i can cope with the new job and i doubt whether i can get along with the new collegues... i have no choice but to tell myself "don't worry, everything will be fine." i have to be confident of myself !!!

sorry for not updating my blog for few days...and SELAMAT HARI RAYA

i'm feeling great in hometown. i really enjoy myself at home..home sweet home!!! i was too busy last week as one of my Sarawak friends visit to Ipoh and i became her tour guide. then, my eldest brother came back (in fact, he sits right beside me now.) my elder brother will come back tomorrow. so, i will be busy again...keep in touch (^_^)
i wish every Muslims SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!!

yippie...finally, i can go back to hometown...hurrays!!!

finally, i can go back home tomolo. i did not go back home since June this year. WHY? i couldn't go back last few months due to the teaching practice. i miss my parents, my mum's cooking, my house, my hometown friends, hometown delicious food and so on and so forth. i can't wait to see my parents tomorrow... wish everybody stay healthy, smart, happy always...HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!

p/s: i seldom online in hometown. Contact me at o17...../ o16....... bye!!!!!

yay...the trip was so fun..thanks to my friends!!! Friendship 4eva

i went to Genting with 6 of my close friends from 16 to 17 September 2008. we went there in order to celebrate Mable's birthday and relax after our teaching practice. we did not drive there. instead, we used public transport. we checked in at Theme Park Hotel as soon as we reached there at about 11.15a.m.

then, we went to outdoor theme park to play (or shd i say to SCREAM??? i think many ppl know that i can really scream...haha...) many of my friends dared not to try space shot. thus, only Poay Ling and i lined up to wait for out turn. She was a bit afraid as she never played space shot before. therefore. i tried to convince her that space shot is not very scary and comfort her..."dun worry. just enjoy urself and shout...by this way, u can really release ur tension...moreover, i'm here to accompany u. dun worry!!! " i think u know what happened next- both of us screamed as loud as we can..(my friends who dared not to play the space shot told me that they could hear my scream from far far away since my voice is very high-pitched...do u believe what my friends said???) sitting beside me was a funny and weird Negro who laughed crazily while the rest screamed "ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh". i dun know what's wrong with her...???

after that, we went into indoor theme park to play hard...we played as many games as possible though we were tired. we all screamed together, laughed together, ate together, teased each other and so on. all these made our trip so fun and enjoyable...yeah...Friendship Forever!!!

i've learnt a lot of things from my ex-students...thanks for ur feedback

i asked my ex-students (current friends) to write feedback for me last Thurs (4F) and Fri (4A). i told them that they can comment on anything including what they dislike about me and my teaching. this is because i want to learn from them so that i can improve myself as well as my teaching. i did not have time to read the feedback in school. thus, i was only able to read all the comments aafter school dismissed.

based on my observation and what they wrote, i learn that they all prefer sth interesting and new. for instance, songs, pictures, drawing and so on and so forth. furthermore, they do not like to use school textbook. they also dislike to be given homework as they complain about they do not have sufficient time to do homework. in addition, they hate to copy exercises from blackboard or workbooks because they think that copying is time-consuming. they are not really into literature and this is especially true for Science stream students since they think that literature is too general, vague and subjective.

besides, i found out that they do not like to paste their works onto their exercise books. this is most probably because they don't like to use glue and it is time-consuming. i think i can understand how they feel as i experienced the same thing before. from my point of view, Form 4 students are mature and independent enough to keep their works systematically. they know how to arrange their works accordingly. hence, i think they would rather keep all the worksheets in a file than paste them onto exercise books.

moreover, i found out that a simple reward like Cloud-9 can cheer them up and motivate them to do better. they like candies very much. CANDIES play an important role in bringing lessons alive. from my point of view, teachers can give their students candies from time to time so that students are more into the lessons and more ready to learn.

besides, i think Form 4 students not only need a teacher who teaches at all times in their classroom but also a teacher who can be their "aged friend" . i say this because a teacher can only know what students need the most by this way. to clarify this, students would only dare to tell what is really in their mind if their teacher is willing to listen to their viewpoint as a friend.

i have gained experience, new knowledge, friendship and others from this teaching practice...i hope all these would enable me to improve myself as well as my teaching (...if i really become a teacher in the future...)

surprise...surprise...and surprise; tears...tears...and tears!!!

i will not forget what happened on 12/9/2008 (Friday), the last day of my teaching practice in SMK Seafield...i felt extraordinarily touched yesterday not only because of 4A and 4F friends but also some "friends" who study in different classes and whom i did not teach before...i did not expect that they would treat me so well until they gave me cards, presents, and even wrote my name in their blogs...some of them even told me that i'm very famous in Seafield...am i? i'm not sure...anyway, i appreciate what they have done for me!!!

hehe...i hugged many people including ex-students and teachers yesterday. of course i did not hug guys even though some of them requested. in fact, i dun mind. however, there's certain school culture and i have to respect the school culture. i dun think it's a good idea to hug guys in school. therefore, i only shaked hand with them..LoL

i dun know whether u believe me or not, my eyes are full of tears now. tears will come out naturally when i think of my beloved "friends" in Seafield, when i look at the feedback/cards/letters they wrote for me and even when i look at the photos i took with them. dun worry, i will not let my tears come out. i will not cry since my eyes are painful after so much of crying last two days....

p/s: sorry if i ur photos are not here. i took pictures with too many people and it's impossible for me to upload all the photos. sorry!!! however, u r always on my mind even without ur photos here

bookmarkssssss........sorry if i didn't mark ur exercise books!!!

i kept on asking myself what i should give to students last week. i decided to give them chocolates long long time ago. but i thought of doing sth which they can keep. hence, i decided to make bookmarks for them.

you are wrong if you think that making bookmarks is easy. i spent at least 3-4 days to make 112 bookmarks. cutting, pasting, drawing, searching for meaningful quotes, printing, cutting again, pasting againsigning, writing messages and drawing again (footprints)...all my friends said that i'm very patient in doing all the bookmarks. in fact, i dun think so. this is because i planned to write different message for each of them at first. however, i ran out of time since i still had to mark students' exercise books which they submitted the last minute. SORRY if i did not mark your exercise books. i have tried my best but i really had not sufficient time...sorry...pls forgive me...PLEASE...) consequently, i did not manage to write different message for each of them...i'm SORRY for that also.

after few days of hard work, all the bookmarks were eventually done. yeah!!! i'm sorry if u dislike the design of the bookmarks...i wish they all will like the bookmark and keep it nicely...if possible, try to think of me when u look at the bookmark... (am i greedy?!!!...LoL)

haih, cried again

Angeline and Shiva were not in the class photo...

what happened to me?

they are super duper excellent. they are my good friends now...haha(^_^)

yummy...so delicious. thank u, Pn. Doris!!! thank you, 4A friends (^_^)

'crybaby' is my latest nickname given by Joan and many ex-students (they all are my friends now...yippie (^_^) agree with her. so pity!!! i have tried my best to control my emotion and told myself not to cry especially in front of students. however, i am who i am. i wll cry whenever i feel touched and i feel touched easily. that's why i was given such nickname... (uuh...uuh...)

many of my ex-students asked me to stay strong and dun cry. but i want to clarify here. i cried not because i'm weak or sad. i cried because they are so touching. they have done a lot of things for me. for examples, they gave me THANK YOU cards, chocolates, organised a farewell party for me and so on. i will not forget what they have done for me...they will always be in my mind as well as my heart!!!

in fact, i didn't expect that they all prepared all these for me as i dun think i deserve them. i didn't know whether they enjoyed my lessons, i didn't know whether they have learnt sth from me, i didn't know whether i'm qualified to be their teacher.......i didn't expect them to like me as i was very strict and fierce particularly during the first day of my teaching practice. (many Seafieldians would agree if i say i'm the scariest and fiercest trainee teacher they have ever met; i think 4A and 4F students know what i mean here!!! hehe...SORRY if i scared u all. i didn't mean to be mad at you all during the first day. i introduced myself as Ms. angry Aw because i followed my lecturers' and seniors' advice to show students that i'm fierce and strict so that they would not bully me...as a result, i was described as the "FIERCEST" among the four of us...LoL!!! )

Hence, i was so surprised that they did so many things for me. (i have already written what my dearest 4F students did for me in the previos post...) i purposely exchanged relief class with Ms. Chee so that i could spend more time with my beloved 4A students yesterday. suddenly, Rahga asked me whether i will be free during recess. then, she asked me to go to Taman Herba, together with Joan, Mable and Chee. after that, she went out from Chemistry lab (if i'm not mistaken, she went out with somebody. i think Edward is one of them. the rest, i'm not sure as i was emo that time.) after about 10 minutes, she rushed back and told me to go to Tapak Nilam after school dismiss instead of Taman Herba during recess. i did not know that they went out just to ask for Pn. Wang's permission to buy cakes for me...they are so touching!!!

After school dismissed, some of my 4A "friends" came to staffroom to hurry my friends and i. unfortunately, i had to write down their marks and pass it to Pn. Latha. "SORRY for being late"...finally, everything settled. four of us went to Tapak Nilam with many "bodyguards" around us...LoL (^_^)...eventually, v reached there. i was surprised to see many of my 4A friends were there (few of them were not there as they had something to do in CF). they all stayed back for me...this is unbelievable!!! haih, i cried again...most of my eyeliner and mascara were gone...so UGLY!!!

Then, i was requested to give speech by Pn. Doris and my 4A friends. what?!! speech again...after that, it was time to eat the cakes...the cakes were the most delicious cake i have ever tried as they were full of my friends' love ad wish...THANKS!!! one of the highlighted events was Pn. Doris fed me...haha...all these are too touching!!! MUAKS...i LOVE u all (^_^)

Seafieldians (not only my dearest 4A and 4F friends but also all the others Seafieldians), i wish u BEST of LUCK and ALL the BEST...wish u all stay healthy, young, happy, handsome/ pretty FOREVER...keep in touch ya...MIss U all...

Wall-E is better than what i think

i watched Wall-E last Friday. indeed, i did not feel like watching such cartoon because i thought that it would be very boring.
however, i did not have choice but to watch this cartoon in cinema last Friday. it is not as boring as i thought though the characters do not talk much. i like the theme of the cartoon which is related to environment. i think v really need to look into this issue seriously as our mother earth has fallen sick. v should play our role to save the environment...Reduce, reuse, recycle...

they are so touching...

supposingly, i should write this post last Friday. however, i was too tired after watching Wall-E in Summit that day. it's better late than never.

many things happened last Friday. first of all, i entered 4F to wait for my 4A students after recess. i saw some of the 4F students were busy writing something at the back of the classroom but i was not sure what they are writing. after the bell rang, 4F students went to Chemistry lab and 4A students came into the classroom. i started to teach "si tenggang's homecoming" as soon as 4A students have settled down. i was confused by the school timetable and the school bell. therefore, i completed the lesson in a hurry. suddenly, students told me that they still had about 20 minutes before the English period ended. what else i can do other than telling my feelings to my students.

then, i suddenly recalled that i brought camera to school that day. i wasted no time to take out my camera and started to capture pictures of my lovely students. i tried my best to convince one of the students to join the rest in the picture since i know that he is camera-shy. haha...he did join the rest in the end!!! after taking a few pictures of them, time was almost up. so, i planned to stop the photo shoot session. after that, i asked them to go to Physics lab but they did not want to go. dun ask me why as i also do not the answer. i wondered was it because they were lazy to attend Physics lesson?!! however, the monitor of the class, Shiva suggested to the whole class to take photo together with me and he went out to find Ken Yoong to be the cameraman. wow, we were too noisy that time until the teacher in the opposite classroom looked at us...due to my height, they asked me to stand on a chair. i had no choice but to take off my high heels and stand on the chair...haha...Believe it or not, a TEACHER did this in class! i dun think i looked like a teacher that moment. (indeed, i want students to treat me as their friend rather than a teacher once i've completed the lesson and when i'm not in school. this enable me to know and understand them better. then, i can prepare a lesson which meets their needs and suits their interest.) THANK YOU for this memorable moment!!!

after that, i went back to staffroom with Mable. suddenly, Kuok Wei came to find me. he asked me to go to their class for a while. i was shocked and asked him why but he did not answer me. so i followed him to go to their class. i was so surprised that almost all the 4F students sang a song and gave me a BIG thank you card when i entered their class. uuh...uuh...i couldn't control my tears and i started crying!!! Syamirah gave me tissue and asked me not to cry...haih, i think it was so embarrassing to cry in front of students. i have tried my best to control my emotion but i am who i am. i will definitely cry when i feel touched......anyway, 4F students, THANK YOU.

it's complicated!!!

if u ask me to describe my feeling now, i dun know how to answer. i think 'complicated' will be the word which best describe my feeling right now. this is because i feel happy and sad at the same time. Happy because i'm going to complete my teaching practice. in anther word, i pass this semester. (^_^)
on the other hand, i'm sad since i dun feel like leaving my students in school though they are playful and naughty sometimes. i feel like i become more cheerful after i get closer to the students. this may be due to the fact that they are still teenagers who do not need to worry too much. they think in a simple way and they do whatever they like. their funny behaviour and creativity always cheer me up!!! therefore, i wish i can stay longer in this school and spend more time with my lovely students...

Hi, Seafield students

"Good morning" is not common in Seafield. instead, students like to say 'hi'. this is unusual to me because i thought 'hi' is used when v greet our friends. nevertheless, i have adapted myself to this new culture. i will reply students by saying 'hi' as well.

"Hi"....nice to meet u all in SMK Seafield. THANKS for leaving footprint in my life. my life becomes more meaningful because of U...U...and U. Thanks, students!!!