sad to hear the bad news

I heard from my mum yesterday morning that somebody's aunt is suffering from cancer. Moreover, the cancer is in the 4th phase. Nothing that i can do for her except praying for her. besides, i wish the somebody will be okay as well because i know she is weak.

Sponsorship Vs. costumes

I'm taking a course named "Strategy in Performing Western Theatre" and i work under costumes. Costumes doesn't mean only clothes but also make up and accessories. I prefer make up the most. Indeed, i'm waiting for reply from a make up team since i do not have confidence to make up for all the eunuchs...i mean Chinese traditional make up!!!

Then, i suddenly work beyond my job because of my dear dear. He helped me to ask for sponsorship as he does not want to see me wake up in the early morning and prepare sandwiches to raise fund. I feel really really touched. I do not mind to work more by making contact with the sponsors and deal with them.

Should i involve in both sponsorship and costumes?

Thanks, dear dear...

Darling,

Sweetheart,

Honey,

Peanut butter,

Dear dear,

Thanks...thanks...thanks!!!

You put your works aside just because you want to help me and don't want to see me suffer from raising fund by selling sandwiches for my course. You know, i don't care how much they sponsor us or whether they will sponsor us. what i really tell you now is i appreciate what you have done for me...

YOU ARE THE BEST!!! you make changes in my life...i mean positive changes...Yeah

Finally, i have the courage to write this post

Was yesterday a bad day?
~No~

Was yesterday a good day then?
~No~

Reasons:

1. I heard from Davy that he had a bad dream about us the night before. I was a bit down but not as down as him. Thus, i tried to play my role to comfort him since the early morning.

2. I did something wrong to some of my sincerely friends because of the grouping problem. I suddenly felt like I was so bad that I betrayed them. I felt guilty to them. I would like to take this opportunity to say sorry to them.
** SORRY, MY DEAREST FRIENDS...
I couldn't even control myself from dropping tears because FRIENDS play an important role in my life. You may wonder what the problem was until I cried. In fact, it was just a small matter. All because i did not know how to say "NO" to my friends whom i feel that i'm comfortable and happy to work with them as well. I feel that i'm bad when i cannot fulfil my friends' wishes. This incident let me recalled what happened two years back when i had to make up my mind where to stay and whom to live with. Some of my juniors asked me to stay in hostel while Katrina asked me to stay with her in UT, Chew Lin and etc. I cried that time oso since i had no choice but to decide one place only....Haih....
~Am i made of water? Why i easily cry?

3. I lost my special and new key chain after i came back to desa. Luckily, the most significant and important part of the key chain is still with me. I guess, some of you know which part i refer to...Hehe!!!


the title of this post is "Finally, i have the courage to write this post" because what Tarynn said last few day is corrct. All my previous posts are kind of happy ones. Actually, i seldom reveal my unhappiness to others as i do not want to let others worry about me... Nevertheless, this post is ~

presentation

My group are supposed to present tomorrow but we exchange with the other group since Yegnesc may not be able to make it next week.

Many of us are not happy with the presentation because we find that we can't learn much from presentations. This is especially true to me as i can't really concentrate no matter how hard i try...i try to focus but don't know what happen to my brain??!

WHAT TO DO?

a SpeCiaL Velentine's Day

12am on 14/2/2009 (Saturday): i received a song from you. One of our favourite song, "Ni Shi Wo Zhui Shen Ai De Nu Ren". ~A surprise to me.

9.30am on 14/2/2009 (Saturday): You picked me up from where i stay and we went to One Utama together. We dressed up nicely because of the special day...We spent few hours there.

2.00pm on 14/2/2009 (Saturday): You fetched me to go Jaya groceries in Jaya 33 to get all the ingredients that he need for the spaghetti.

Many people would choose to have dinner outside to celebrate Valentine's Day. However, i do not think the same. i prefer to stay at home and have home-made dinner. Thanks, Dear. What u prepared for me last Saturday was really very very delicious. 10 out of 10.

U may ask me "really?"

My answer is absolutely "YES"

U know how touched and happy i was when i saw u walked here and there to get all the ingredients (chicken, carrots, mushroom soup, cheese and spaghetti) for the special meal?!!! i almost wanted to cry in front of you but i managed to control myself from doing that. Then, again, when i saw you open the cans in kitchen, i really wanted to stand beside you and help you...(hehe....you know what happened later on, don't you??? SHY SHY lah!!!) After that, you offered yourself to get the can opener from Angela while you did not know where her house is precisely just because you wanted to treat me as princess that day made me wanna cry again...That's why i went to bath instead of cooking together with you in kitchen...
**though i am not as good as you when comes to cooking!!!

15/2/2009 (Sunday): Dear and I went to One Utama again. He bought me a "MOO MOO". I like it very very much...this "moo moo" has special mission...hehe!!!

Tears of happiness was dropping from my eyes and heart continuously even until today...and your face will keep on appearing in my mind. The only thing that i can do now is to look at the picture we took together and touch the necklace you gave me~

luckily, i have delicious porridge

I do not know why i feel a bit moody these two days, may it due to i have nothing to do or i miss somebody. As many people know that i like to do homework and i don't like to read unless the reading materials are interesting enough to capture my attention and pleasurable to read. I already completed what i have to do for most of my assignments and thus, i feel like i have nothing to do and too boring till moody. moreover, somebody has to work and cannot be here with me for all the time...Meanwhile, many of my friends are busy with their works. Consequently, the only thing i can do is to ...


fortunately, i had delicious porridge to eat. The instant porridge had a magical effect on me as it cheered me up. (*the instant porridge needs only 30 seconds to be cooked.) Now i'm not moody anymore...yeah!!!

what can i do to help u...

Friend,
i blame myself for being useless when you need help,
i do not know what i can do to help you but only listen to your problem.
besides, i can only pray for you...
i wish everything will be fine with you!!!

Children's play

Children's play, children's play,
where are you???

u know how hard to look for you,
i put in effort to locate you,
but seems like you do not want to appear in front of my eyes
and want to play hide-and-seek with me...
sigh

i want to find you,
i really need you,
especially the good one which is easy to perform!!!

open house in Juayn's Kajang house

As usual, Juayn invited us to go to her house during CNY. The only difference this year is she invited us to go to her place on 14th of CNY instead of 8th of CNY. (Her whole family had to attend her cousin's wedding on "nian chu ba")

I think i'm the only one who always visit to her house among all the TESLians since my second year as an undergraduate until i'm familiar with her house. For instance, i know all her warm-hearted family members and even where Milo or Neacafe is...hehe (^_^)

I already went to her house for three CNYs continuously. Nevertheless, this time differs from the last two times as i brought along Davy. He fetched some of my friends and i to go there last night and he spent time with us as well. i feel glad that he could mingle with my friends, may it due to the fact that he is quite sociable or talkative. 100% for sure is that i do not want him to feel bored while he has no choice but to accompany me to spend time with my friends.

Thanks again, Davy!!!

Cinemas~ sweet memory

i watched "The Wedding Games" in KLCC's cinema last Tues with Davy. Why we travelled so far to KLCC just to watch that movie while we could go Cineleisure which is near to my house??? This is because he knew that i never watched movie there.

Then, Davy and i went to the premier class in Gardens' GSC Signature to watch "Pink Panther" last Sat since both of us never been there and our friend, Ivy, keeps on telling us that we should go there to watch movies. both of us like the environment in Gardens' GSC Signature though the movie ticket is more expensive.

***In fact, I do not mind whether the atmosphere of the cinema is good but i like the fact that we spend time to create sweet memory together...

~THANKS~

THANKS

for taking care of me,

for loving me,

for giving me support,

for giving me guidance,

for being tolerant towards my stubbornness,

for giving me freedom,

for being respectful,

for giving me chances to be myself in front of you,

.......

***The above gratitude is addressed to my loving family, Davy and friends.
(of course i still have a lot of friends whose photos are not shown here...but you all should know who i mean, right?)

~Friends, you know that i will not forget you all even though i did not upload your pictures in this post, right?!!

***I really mean what I say

it' hard to decide...

...TESL, a four-year-course...almost comes to an end (forget about all the assignments...)
the most popular question i heard recently is "Are you going to apply for posting?"
I tried not to think about it at first.

However, i have no choice but to make decision now......ta~ta~i decided to pass up the application form!!! Some of my friends like Tracy and Joan asked me when they knew my decision. They asked me why suddenly i make such decision and my answer is "I dun know. Suddenly, i've a strong feeling that i should hand in the form and i've the passion to teach."

Passion?
Are you sure, Jeneft Aw?

i'm not sure whether my passion to become a teacher can last long but there is one thing for sure- i will try my best to be a good and responsible teacher.

A different Chinese New Year

Different?
How different can it be?

Chinese New Year this year is

different because i was the latest to go back home among my housemates and my family members

different because i went to Kek Lok Dong with family on the 1st day of CNY

different because i did not meet all my hometown friends (i just gather with some)

different because i forgot to wish my best friends' Happy birthday (sorry, Poay Ling and Juayn)

different because i celebrated CNY together with Davy

different because i went to Pesta Tanglung near Sunway City with Davy and family on the 5th day of CNY

different because i took a lot of photos with family

different because i went back to PJ by following his car...